Another Week Down

Seems I've hit a plateau. *sigh* I haven't lost much and I'm already at a stand still. I'm at 209 lbs. I suppose that's good since I'm not back at 214 or 231 or worse. Frustrating though. In spite of that, I've gone down a smidge in my measurements.

Date: 02/18/2009 Neck: Bicep: Forearm: Chest: Waist: Hips: Thigh: Calf:

I need to take another photo so I can compare. I don't see a difference but I had someone at work say something, so, meh, who knows. I'll photo after I put on some make up and clothes.

I'm going to actually make a menu for myself and a workout schedule. I'm premenstrual so it's hard to keep on a good eating routine, ie to not shove anything covered in sugar in my mouth. I've also been eating more bread, albeit really good for you whole grain bread full of fiber, I still wonder if that's slowing my weight loss to a crawl. In the past I've had a shitload of trouble losing if I didn't cut carbs really low and I guess that's still holding true. Blah.

On to other things, my hair feels so wonderful! I gave it a really long olive oil treatment followed by another conditioning treatment and it's really nice and soft even though I blow dried it. It smells so lovely too! Eh gotta finish cleaning.

This Weeks Measurements!

Date: 02/11/2009 Neck: Bicep: Forearm: Chest: Waist: Hips: Thigh: Calf:

How exciting. They changed! A whole .5 in. I gained .5 inch in my thigh. not the right direction. And I'm weighing in at 209 lbs today. So WTF?

Eh. Numbers, numbers, numbers. More stress for me with the numbers. I wish I was one of those people who just 'forgot to eat' or could just 'eat what I want' and never gain. But I'm not. Years of emotional eating and depression have made it so I never forget to eat and I CAN and often DO eat whatever I want but I always gain from it. I know that eating right and exercising make the depression less of an issue, but that damn emotional eating is a bitch. Right now I'm really stressed at work and not getting much time to work out... er.. not taking the time to work out. And... I'm not losing much either. Damn it. I hate it when I know how to fix my own problems. ;) Not really, sometimes I just need to sit and write it out to focus on my problem and how I do have the power to solve it. Maybe I need to do this every day. That and develop more patience.

anyway there are the numbers. Tonight (hopefully - depends on his schedule), I'll be making a lovely steak dinner for Sarge as a Valentine's treat. Just steak and veggies, no starches and no dessert. I really WANT to bring dessert but I think it's best I don't. I'm already bringing him a cute candy box filled with Kisses. It's adorable, says Happiness on the front and it's shaped like a Chinese food take out but it's glass. That and some funky tea.

Okay off to go work out, I've managed to make myself feel guilty about that ;)

Stepping back

Damn... weighed in at 210.0 lbs just now. blah. I know it's because I haven't been very good on my eating plan this week. *sigh* No excuses, that's just it. I ate.

Tomorrow is a new day and back at work for me. Here are my photos for this week. New outfit, new hair.


I've got a migraine so I have no motivation to take measurements. I'll do it tomorrow.

Down Some!!

Woohoo! I weighed in at 209.8 lbs just now! I was starting to think I'd be stuck going from 210 up to 211 lbs for a while. YAY! I know, it's not much, but it's SOMETHING! (I weighed at 208 lbs this morning). Happy dance! Happy Dance!

Temptation

Fuck, I hate PMS! I must have eaten 200 cookies today (not really). I worked 12 hours straight. I'm so tired.

Week 3 Start

I weighed in at 210.4 lbs this morning. So 1 lb down for the week. A total of 4 since I started. I'm disappointed with the 1 lb. Though I keep telling myself that slow is the way to make it last. Still... hard to not be a tad disappointed - I'm really craving RESULTS. Visible results.

Date: 02/02/2009 Neck: Bicep: Forearm: Chest: Waist: Hips: Thigh: Calf:

I've lost half an inch in my thighs and an inch in my calf! Woohoo, way to go visible change. *sigh* It's a change, and change is good. Think positive, think positive.

Moving on, I already worked out today. I'm going to be working on getting my pigsty of a casa cleaned up and things gotten rid of. With Dixie moving out the girls should have room for their toys and stuff in their own rooms. That and I'm just sick of all the crap everywhere. I want to get rid of one of my sofas and have more room in the livingroom. I need to go through my room and the rest of the apartment and make more room all together. I'm going to make a chore chart for the girls of things they have to get done every day. I need one for myself as well. Changes. Lots of changes. All good.

Motivation?

Where have you gone? Blah.

This week has kind of sucked. I didn't work out other than to walk to and from work. I didn't get much done around the house and I didn't stick with my eating well like I intended to. Granted I didn't eat a pint of ice cream every night, I just didn't stick with it the way I'd like.

That being said, I'm going to be very Zen about it and let it go. I start a new week tomorrow and with a new week will come a renewal of my commitment to becoming a healthier me with a healthier and slimmer body.

Dear Judy;

It's okay that you weren't perfect this past week. Let's just start anew. Every day you stick with me on this, you become a stronger, healthier person. You get closer to your goal. Dont' lose sight! We CAN do this! We WILL accomplish this!

Love
Judy